Once again on the 31st day of the last day of the year, it seem so right as a woman that I find myself reading Proverbs 31 (actually that is at least three times since last week) to end the year. Searching knowing there is a perfect resolution for a new year hidden in the words of a mother to her son on a good wife. Comparing myself to every line; and asking, 'am I like this?', absolutely not. How can I compare myself to a woman that 'does it all, has it all'? She is like the most modern women in our day, wife, mother, housekeeper, entrepreneur; she is fearless, and strong; not afraid of the future. Although I am like her in some ways, I am awaken in my soul to desire the underlying reason for her strength. Even my struggle with not being "a morning" person sets me juxtaposed to her. I can find all the excuses for not being like her. But my resolution is to become more like her. Not in the 'doing' but in her confidence, knowing that the Lord is with her. Focusing on her inner strength and seeing her constant communication with her Lord is the reason for her strength. Going throughout her day she is the 'select woman' for a king, a 'good woman'. It isn't until the very last words you find her underlying strength, the reason for praise; she is the woman who lives in fear of God. He is the reason. Between the lines she is in constant praise to Him every moment of every day, between the lines, which is not stated, but now I understand her, she adores and praises Him constantly in her 'doing'. It is not longer just 'doing'.
As one more year ends and a new year begins, the old dies once more and there is a new birth coming. My resolution is to draw closer to the Lord, reverence Him, a good fear, a healthy fear. He is my strength, my all in all. I don't want to be more the "doing" woman but the God fearing woman, the woman who praises Him constantly. Then all the above can be guided and "not fall into place", because with my Lord, nothing falls into place, it all comes together in a beautiful, extraordinary way.
A new year....a woman for my King.
Sunday
December 30, 2007, He Whom My Soul Loves
He Whom My Soul Loves
At every turn as we search for our love, adversity will try and steal our hope away. In Song of Songs once she found him and newness in her spirit is aroused it didn't seem long before her desire wasted. He knocked at her door and she had no desire to get up and open it. Isn't this so like us? He waits as only our Lord can wait at the door of our heart and we're too tired, too occupied to let Him enter (continuously enter). He desired her and once aroused she could not find him and had to begin searching again. Is this how we are with our Lord? Does He need to bang on our door in order for us to answer.
Song of Songs 3:2-3: I sought him but did not find him. The watchmen who make the rounds in the city found me, and I said, "Have you seen him whom my soul loves?" (My soul, my very being).
These watchmen may be significant of those sent by the Lord in our darkest hour, in the desert times as we make the decision and long to find Him; they are sent to guide us. They are those that gently but firmly guide us back on the correct path. Being occupied and forgetting her first love, the bride becomes vulnerable and in Chapter 5 these watchmen ravaged and violate her. These are destruction and diversions that try to steal our first love away. There is a strength in her as she is determined to find her lover once again, she quickly defends him to her sisters with a passionate description of His beauty. She knew Him and desires Him as her own. How can we run from such passion? As we find our path to embrace this love it is healing, then we love Him with all our heart, with all our soul, with all our mind and all our strength. Matthew 22:37
It is Christ within you, He embraces you with a love that only He is able to give.
At every turn as we search for our love, adversity will try and steal our hope away. In Song of Songs once she found him and newness in her spirit is aroused it didn't seem long before her desire wasted. He knocked at her door and she had no desire to get up and open it. Isn't this so like us? He waits as only our Lord can wait at the door of our heart and we're too tired, too occupied to let Him enter (continuously enter). He desired her and once aroused she could not find him and had to begin searching again. Is this how we are with our Lord? Does He need to bang on our door in order for us to answer.
Song of Songs 3:2-3: I sought him but did not find him. The watchmen who make the rounds in the city found me, and I said, "Have you seen him whom my soul loves?" (My soul, my very being).
These watchmen may be significant of those sent by the Lord in our darkest hour, in the desert times as we make the decision and long to find Him; they are sent to guide us. They are those that gently but firmly guide us back on the correct path. Being occupied and forgetting her first love, the bride becomes vulnerable and in Chapter 5 these watchmen ravaged and violate her. These are destruction and diversions that try to steal our first love away. There is a strength in her as she is determined to find her lover once again, she quickly defends him to her sisters with a passionate description of His beauty. She knew Him and desires Him as her own. How can we run from such passion? As we find our path to embrace this love it is healing, then we love Him with all our heart, with all our soul, with all our mind and all our strength. Matthew 22:37
It is Christ within you, He embraces you with a love that only He is able to give.
December 29, 2007, My Protector, New Year's Resolution, To Love Him More
As the ball is lowered to end this year with hope for a new beginning, I want to share as I have on my heart revelation of death and resurrection from a new plateau. In my ever searching deeper walk with the Lord I want to walk right "inside" His heart to understand Him more, I find myself in the last week yearning for Him as I work on my own healing process. Like Song of Songs, she wanders in the city looking for the one she loved and is met by watchmen as she asks them, 'have you seen the one I love?" It has been a week of dying and being born again in a new plateau with the Lord. To understand that I should seek nothing from anyone. We are human pathways whom the Lord uses for His glory. He calls us to a deeper and deepest yearning for Him. He is my Lord, my God, my Everything, my All in All, my Protector, my Guider, my Savior, my Redeemer. My walk in this time and on this earth becomes so enriched in my awareness of His watching over me. My eyes, my heart is on and with Him. I realize that if I stay in this place and go to this place each and every moment of every day, regardless of the mundane, the turmoil, the stress, I find my Lover who is My Lord. This has and is and always will be the safest and most fulfilling place in our lives. As we reach out to Him to complete in us death and living, and living and death. How can we look anywhere else? My understanding and my awareness of his scourging becomes revealed as I welcome this death, it is a good death, humbled, not humiliated. It is as if someone had laid me across a whipping post for crimes committed, I waited for the blows to come. And I heard the Lord say, "I already bore the scourging so you wouldn't have to". He stopped the blows from my back, standing between me and the accuser and punisher and received it all on His back for me. I realize I have been redeemed. My life has changed and I welcome being humbled, it is not humiliating, it is healing to all my being. Don't be afraid to die to yourself and live again in His love, it is a communion shared, and share it with your family and those close to you and your acquaintances. This is my resolution for my "new' year to search for and love Him more.
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